MY REFUSAL OF LOVE

“Love can be used for anything you can explain, any good thing that you can explain,”– Dr. Maya Angelou

My refusal of love is not of gain
But of fear 
I have given much, yet I have received little in return
They once said, with love, there’s much to earn
I’ve been alone for so long I dare not to pay such price
I’m not ready to surrender, I won’t swallow that pride
At this moment I choose to live.
I wish of no regret
The road which I walk is not lonely, I dare not to choose  a  partner of intimacy
My experiences  are as vivid as can be
My fears  are  nowhere  under my feet 
A set mind  is  a leader’s  mind 
Though I set my mind, I waste my time
For as I fix I break 
My experience  is as vivid  as  the day
No man knows  the time 
Only those who are willing to fight  shall fight 
I fight  no lost bottle  I won’t  hold on to you with pieces of shuttles
Carry on along with your  day if you stop your time  goes to waste
I listened  to  no grooming  words 
I portrayed  them as lies  and choose not to waste time
For gold  is the words, sliver  are the lips, but snake is the tongue
In peace  and  comfort  I hope to  stay 
I worry  not over intimacy  I have none  to  gain 
Love will I give, pity will I refuse 
I’m  not pathetic 
I might be  lost, but I choose to walk on a healing path and not damage an innocent heart.

©️ Anita Johnson

“Dear friends, let’s love each other, because love is from God, and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. The person who doesn’t love does not know God, because God is love.” — 1 John 4:7-8

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