Choked by my own words

For the first time,
I felt what it felt like to be choked by my own words.
I had so much to say to you,
But my words,
They stop at my throat.
Holding on so tight,
That they cut the air off.
My tears said what I felt,
But it still couldn’t illustrate,
What my words would’ve said.
I looked you in the eye,
Hoping you would understand,
The pain I felt.
Looking someone I love in the eye,
After seeing them in someone else’s bed.
For the first time,
My words hang on to my throat.
Only letting go so I could scream out in agony.
When I couldn’t take it anymore,
I restored to my hands.
I felt powerless.
Under your watchful eyes.
For the first time,
I felt what it felt like to be choked by my own words.
When I need them the most.

©️ 2021 Anita Johnson

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Psalm:37:37

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